Silent Tears

I was sitting in my room today
Talking with my mom
Not sure what to say
I felt she was judging me
Once again controlling
Who I am, who I need to be

I'm feeling better now
but can't help but wish
That where was a way, somehow
That you could have been there
Could have held me close
As you stroked my hair

[Chorus]
I hate that you're not here
Reaching out to empty air
Crying silent tears
Wishing that your hand was there

 This was not the first time
I suffered alone
Wishing that the tarnished dime
Left solitary on the floor
If tossed into a well
Could open the future's door

Two and a half years
But your departure, not homecoming
seems much more near
It's only been 6 weeks
and yet I wish I could
into the future peek

[Chorus]

I know that I should not despair
It'll seem but a blink of an eye
before you're once more there
And so this thought gives me hope
And keeps me going
when I want to mope

I'll love you forever and always
Through all of my life
Through all of my days
And look forward to the day
When we'll no longer depart
But only together stay

I know that you'll be here
Filling all the empty air
Wiping away the silent tears
I'll grab your hand that's now here

I know that you'll be here,
Wiping away my silent tears.

Waiting

So my boyfriend is currently serving a mission in Eugene, Oregon, and I won't see him again until November 2015, when I get back from my mission. I still get to hear from him in a weekly e-mail, but it's not nearly the same. So this song describes what it's like waiting for him.

It's been a month
since we last spoke
Since I heard your voice
say that you love me

Sure, you've written
but it's just not the same
I want your arms around me
and your lips on mine

I want to just sit
and while away the hours
Talking about everything
and about nothing too.

I hate all those times
When something happens
And I just want to tell you
But remember I can't

You are my other half
The Hebrew ezer knegdo
A perfect help meet
For all my problems

I know that time will fly
and we'll be back
together very soon
But still I'm waiting

Waiting for you.


Not what I first had in mind. But it works. More a poem than a song though. Ya..